after a particularly rough time today i get on "r" back to queens. a drunken guy with a large necklace of a cherokee chief is repeating "invictus" like as mantra and my eyes start to water for the first time in at least six months.... "OUT of the night that covers me, Black as the Pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears Looms but the Horror of the shade, And yet the menace of the years Finds, and shall find, me unafraid. It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll, I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul."

TAROT

I've got a notebook full of notes to work on my tarot deck and guide book. I am slowly realizing this might be a multiple year project.its nice to have something so ambitious to focus on. 78 cards and research. yikes, i gonna need more coffee asap.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&NR=1&v=SKl1JtgyKfg

ive been seeing alot of moths lately

"*Spirits of the Earth/Bobby Lake-Thom: Moths are messengers from the spirit world, telling us that a ghost is around. I realize that moths are attracted by light and fire, but once again one must study the behavior of the moth to determine if it has gone out of its way and normal pattern to communicate a message. For example, if it lands on your shoulder, ear, or head and keeps following you, it is a messenger from a ghost. A good ghost will give you a warm feeling; a bad ghost will feel cold and eerie, and perhaps pester you. To get rid of it, use the smudge purification ritual and ask the good spirits to take it away."